Letter to Mama: Day 1,079 (March 03, 2024)

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Sometimes, in solitude, I read my previous journals (which all contain my unread letters for my Lola) just so I know if things have gotten worse or better. I read this particular entry, and looking back, things actually turned out fine.



"Dear Mama,
How long has it been since I last wrote to you? Ma, things are changing. Really fast. I don't even know if I'm making the right decisions anymore but I'm trying to stand my ground no matter how difficult it gets.
Last year was truly challenging. It was a test of patience and integrity. And as usual, I had the urge to run away again, like I always do.
Please tell me I'm still a good person. The perfect little girl you raised. I miss you. I really do.
Tomorrow it's gonna be a new day. I'll be a student again. I hope I'll still do well. It's been such a long time and I feel lazy to study now. Hehe.
Continue inspiring me and guiding me. I really need it now more than ever.
I want to be stronger this year. I will do my best to do that.
Please tell me you are still proud of me. I miss you, Ma. I love you!
- NICE"
A lot of things can happen in just a year. But the reason I’m sharing this now is to show the world that it does get better. After writing this entry last year, I met new people. My classmates who turned into friends! And I can honestly say they made my gloomy life brighter. To my "Basic" friends, if you're reading this, masaya talaga akong nakilala ko kayo! 




To my Mama, I wish to see and hear your voice again. I hope you’re proud of me. Everything I’ve accomplished, it’s all because of you.

- Your Melrae Shanice ♥

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